Friday, 6 November 2009
- thought of the day 1: 99% of chio girls my age have a bf
thought of the day 2: 99.5% of girls with virtuous character also have a bf
thought of the day 3: im gonna stick in the nv-will-get-a-gf club permanantly
thought of the day 4: gosh there are so many more impt things in life why am i thinking of this now
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Monday, 19 October 2009- i just read 3 blogs, with totally contrasting contents
the angsty frustrated angry blog
the whut?????? blog
the realli mature blog that impresses me greatly
its interesting to see how the same educational institute produces so many different kinds of people.
that said, i realise that some people have learnt to grow up, some are struggling to grow up, while others havent grown up at all.
an alarming observation for those who fall under the 3rd category. an even more alarming situation for those who do not realise that they are stuck.
i wonder
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Monday, 12 October 2009- the internet connection at work is damn lousy
im hungry...and tired
i have this work inertia. this is bad. dead by thurs.
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Monday, 5 October 2009- there are some times when you feel as if all the colour in the world around you fades and everything becomes a pall shade of black and white, where life distills itself into a bleak melancholic rythmn that beats incessantly without a blinking an eyelid. where destiny never cries for you but stares with eyes that bore through the human spirit and cuts down to the deepest depths of a human soul, revealing...nothing.
maybe its the october air, maybe its the stony stare
but i know im walking down the road of despair.
little by little fading away, hastening towards the end of days
yet, where my body will lay
please, nothing you will see.
currently bones are the drumsticks, skulls are the drums. the scythe my staff and the mask my identity. u beat the rythmn, i live the life. but at the end, all there is but strife. people rise, only to fall. such is the way of it all.
the ring of doom, sounds out. i stop and stare, and realise that all is within. doom comes from one, and life comes from the same. but maybe. maybe. salvation comes from you.
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Monday, 28 September 2009- i read some stomp articles today coz matt told me abt some NJC hoo haa that resurrected itself after 2 years.
i was appalled by ris low's english, but i must say that after reading thru the comments on stomp she is quite representitive of the singaporean population. the standard of speech there is atrocious. and coming from me...
im quite amazed at how some sch lessons are carried out. thankfully we never had that kind of stuff in sch. role playing was common (and mighty fun i will add) but flaming another sch and making death threats at live people were never carried out. but oh wellz...thats what makes some schs better than others i guess.
hopefully i dun go boomz in the street haha
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Wednesday, 23 September 2009- i've been rather impressed by how well some people can think.
me on the other hand, am hungry now and cant think past lunch
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Monday, 21 September 2009- somehow i feel this sense of total dread as i return to work tmwr. its worse than anything i've ever felt, even in my sch days. i wonder what is it that makes me so dislike my army work. in sch, i've woken up looking forward to another day, or maybe thinking of ponning sch at times, but i've nv realli felt this...sianess so strongly. its irritating coz its definitely affecting my work performance. how i wish ORD would be soon.
D2 is fun...but i hope that the game im playing now isnt screwed up.
lock in: Oct 10.
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Tuesday, 8 September 2009- i still feel quite tired, for some unknown reason. Sch hours regularly ran longer than army hours, and im doing so much less than when i was in sch. so why do i feel so tired?
in other thoughts, prelims are coming round for the j2s and year 6s. all the best. everything comes round...and everything ends. but its proven to be done and possible, so pls take encouragement from that.
my...future...looks more blury than ever
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Thursday, 3 September 2009- im tired these few days. that in turn has been causing me to be on a permanant sort of bad mood.
im quite worried for aus and ucas apps. i've not been doing much to get them, and tho i noe that it would be nice to go overseas, i dun realli like giving up so much that i've staked here (choir, frens, church). but then again i cant realli think of what i can do in NUS since i got rejected by med alrdy...i cant try again so that kinda forces my hand since i also rejected pharm.
sometimes, its good to be less rich, and to be more simple.
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Monday, 24 August 2009- ah! how to do that ringing tone, the one where u resonate the sound in your head???? been trying until the family members are getting seriously pissed off and irritated. gosh i need a manual haha. hopefully im on the way.
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Thursday, 20 August 2009- nothing shakes a man like a birth, and a death. the ultimate knowledge that one never controls his destiny, no matter what other ppl say.
and death, in all its tragedy, is the greatest thing that can happen to one in Christ, one who is washed cleaned of all transgressions. As my heart sorrows, it rejoices. As my mind despairs, it hopes. As my body weakens, it is lifted. Death, has thrown its full might, and in the process has finally relinquished all its power. A great paradox one might say, and it is great in many a ways. for never has such complete victory been concealed in such apparent biggest of defeats. and yet, many ppl do fall, nv to rise again.
A good man forever departs
What sorrow doth filleth my heart
The waning of a flame of life
A cruel turn of fate's own dice
yet sparkling forth into eternal bright
one can ne'er comprehend its glowing light
for when one knows the truth once gave
he can say in Christ, all is saved
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Tuesday, 18 August 2009- only 2 kinds of ppl can piss me of real bad
work collegues, and family.
rite now its both
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- in my youtube surfs i've seen quite a number of great pianists in action, both dead and alive now. kissin, maria argerich, arrau, horowitz, berezovsky, bennett, yundi li...etc. cant rmb all now. but i think now there's this up and coming pianist, super good - wang yuja. her clips on youtube are all nothing short of extraordinary, with unimaginable technique (for me) at the highest level coupled with musical maturity and depth that is so rare to be found in such a perfect combination as hers. If you are interested in good music, one should go listen.
super tired now. but nvm good music lifts the soul
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Saturday, 15 August 2009- yesterday's concert, 14th Aug Vox Masala II.
i can't realli say the choir changed much since 2007. still the same old problems sound wise. Rather worrying is the lack of response to the conductor's guiding on stage.
ALumni was good. i was rather impressed. but then all of them are stronger singers than me haha so i guess its more like their real standard. a little unsteady here and there and of course cannot match the width of the main choir due to numbers, they did a good job of what they had at hand. but the miking was bad. PA realli need to improve more.
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Friday, 14 August 2009- i hate today
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Wednesday, 12 August 2009- I hate project!
and today was a realli barren day for mousehunt. super irritating.
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Monday, 10 August 2009- lets see
mousehunt is proving to be addictive.
my singing seriously sux
i realise, all my childhood frens have grown up. which is a little bittersweet coz when we were young growing up was all we could think of, yet now that we're here...it seems that when we were young things were so uncomplicated.
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Friday, 31 July 2009- so after a good streak of catching quite a bit of mice (including the rather hard vampire mouse), my radioactive blue has been eaten 5 times with no catch. stupid lycan mouse, so hard to catch.
what i think would be ideal now: Remove me from project clerk scheme AND move saforo up to lvl 4, kick out DRtech would be good.
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Tuesday, 28 July 2009- im quite tired now. i think its coz of the cold weather last night that froze me out of my slp. and i dun even use aircon.
thinking back on my IB life, the fact that i attained the results that i got is kinda of a small miracle. I tried to think of the subjects in which i could safely say that i aced in my IAs. apart from BIO (thnx to mdm yong's pushing in term 2) i managed to do rather well in that section. but EL...no...although i enjoyed IOC and World Lit, my actual outcome wasnt as good as what i expected it to be. Math, not realli, passable. Chinese doesnt count coz its so freaking low standard. Chem, that one i realli dunno, coz we nv got to see the results. But from what i did in class it cant be realli all that good....
So in short, somehow along the line i managed to pick up enough 7s and 6s to make a decent score. which is rather amazing considering i did my EE in like one nite and morning chiong session, and my tok was realli languishing coz i was so uninterested. quite a miracle. I guess once u look back u can appreciate how much blessings one gets, how much one cannot do and how limited a person truly is.
oh if any of you are wondering why i can blog at this time, im blogging from office. its realli cold here. the air con vent is just above me and its blowing cold air into my hand. soon i wouldnt be able to feel my right hand. yay. its a cold day too. double trouble. things seem to have gotten a little better since my last chiong sua session. so lets see what happens this fri.
I think when i left sch, a part of me never left. its strange, coz i miss my JC and my Pri sch, but somehow i dun realli miss my sec sch. to me it was fun and good and yeah a most pleasant experience, but then it doesnt stick. doesnt stick. pri 6 definately is unforgettable, and IB life was unique, recent and most relevant to me i guess. and after being thrown into army i miss it even more.
i wonder if ppl actually read this haha. but ignorance is bliss. only when u are sure that there isnt anyone around that u can truly bare ur true feelings. of course everyone has maybe a select group of people to share thoughts with. but over such public domain it might not be that wise to expose ur character in such full detail.
I was listening to the Beethoven Symphony 9 last night, the 4th movement i think. it was realli long 32 mins in all. but it was good. Wah when the bassus part came in it was just fantastic. amazing and SSO is playing it in NOV. lets see if i can catch this one, unlike the epic fail when wil and i tried to get Yundi Li tix but it was sold out in like 2 weeks?
haha play piano play piano
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Sunday, 26 July 2009- i dun wanna go work tmwr. grr.
anyway it has been cruelly and nicely laid before me that my singing is way below standard. i have been too used to a standard where the 'nirvana' was where everyone could actually decently hit the notes correctly, and since i THINK i can do that quite well, i have never realli worked hard to do anything else.
but noooo. the 3 hours standing itself already is enuf to kill my back. ppl back in sch should try it. it will kill some ppl for sure. now i have to shake off that 'note-hitting' mindset for something so much higher, something that exists on a higher musical level and plain. now i have to listen out closely to other parts, not that i've not been doing that alrdy, but last time was just to check basic chords, if im off tune. the stuff that im learing requires real listening, with complex and rather obscure stuff to me (im lousy). so yeah. woah its hard its hard and its gonna make me a better choral singer. yeah
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